Smile Always…For All Is Forever Well

August 29, 2006

To Kyle

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningforlife @ 10:30 pm

Kyle Robert Rookie, my one and only true love,

   I doubt you’ll be on before I go to bed, but I’d hate to not say
goodnight to you.  Seeing you and being in your arms again tonight was
amazing.  Three days were really starting to feel like a year to me. 
You were so cute with your mussed up hair…and that twinkle in you eye
when you smile…you’re really something special sweetheart.  I wish our
moments together in each other’s arms didn’t need to be so fleeting and
   I love you so incredibly much.  You’re the first person who’s been
able to truly make me smile inside.   I’m still smiling.  Some how the
bumps in the road of life seem so much smaller with you in my life. 
And, most importantly, you’re the first to make me feel so free.  Every
other relationship I had, made me feel so tied down.  But, you’re
something different, and wonderful.  So, thank you for being so kind to
me, for always caring, for making me smile so much.  I feel truly
blessed to have you in my life.

                       Sweet dreams love!


P.S.  I know you’re shopping tomorrow, but I’ll be up by 9, so if you
haven’t left yet, my mom’s not on-line, and you feel like talking don’t
be afraid to call.

P.P.S. Yeah, you defiantly are an amazing kisser…seriously that kiss
tonight was perfect. : )


August 24, 2006


Filed under: Daily Life — runningforlife @ 11:18 pm

Let’s see…, there’s really not much to write about that I’m actually allowed to write about given that I’m supposed to keep somethings on the dl at the moment. Moving went wonderfully today thanks to Kyle coming and helping us out. (And thank-you very much for that Kyle) Band was just as wonderful. Hell, life has been wonderful.

August 20, 2006


Filed under: Daily Life — runningforlife @ 12:34 pm

Waking up after another night of restless sleep, with another stomach ache, feeling deathly tired, then calling the doctor only to find out the cause of all this is parasites living in your intestines stealing your nutrients is definitely no fun.  Luckily they invented drugs for these things..but I’m still sooo tired.  So we’ll have to see about Ryan’s party today.  I feel bad, but chances are I’m not going to go.
Otherwise life is pretty good.  During the lovely hour+ power outage last night Jess called cause she was bored. So she walked over and we praticed guardwork in the light from my neighbor’s house (they have a generator), and got eaten alive by mosquitoes.  Despite the mosquitoes we still had a pretty fun time.
Well, momentarily I feel like going back to bed.  Just overall feeling both mentally and physically blah.  Maybe I will…

August 19, 2006

Car-wash Cancelled

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningforlife @ 9:50 am

If you’re reading this and don’t already know, the car-wash today was CANCELLED due to the bad weather (well I thought it was fine…we’ve washed in far worse..but w/e) and will be rescheduled for another thus far unknown date.

August 18, 2006


Filed under: Uncategorized — runningforlife @ 11:12 pm

Jeesh people…don’t be afraid to comment and give me some feedback on my philosophies and ramblings!

Explanation to the below…

Filed under: Daily Life — runningforlife @ 11:00 pm

That bit of Jenna philosophy was in response to part of the letter from “chocolate” I received today basically stating that he thought long and hard and decided what we had was really a “rebound relationship” and needed to go back to friendly terms.  I totally respect him for being honest with me, and he’s therefore instantly forgiven for any hard feelings.  But they’re really aren’t any.  I’ve been through the whole, “Either you break up with me, or I’ll cheat on you with a girl at my own school,” and “I have to break up with you because of your mom,” only to find they really planned on going out with someone else, scenarios.  So really, this is nothing.  The way I see it is if someone wants to break things off, they have a legitimate reason for doing so, and their decision should be respected.  Let’s see…what did I really loose anyways?  The possible pressures of a relationship?  That doesn’t seem so bad to me.
            Fred, Kyle, Greg…lunch today was A-Maz-Ing!  I don’t think we say thanks to people for their wonderful friendships often enough, and take it for granted too often.  So thanks guys!  Every moment of time spent with you, your respect, and your love means a ton to me.
            Crappy carwash weather tomorrow…lol.  At least we won’t mind getting wet as much.  And given who will be there (all my bestest buddies), it’s sure to be an awesome time. Hopefully I’ll see everyone, seeing as I’m working all three shifts. : )

Excerpt from a letter

Filed under: Philosophy — runningforlife @ 10:18 pm

“Love is such a strange thing. It’s like fire. Fire can warm you and keep you alive, yet is can just as easily become uncontrolled and kill you. Love’s just one of those things I doubt we’ll ever come to understand. If love is such a wonderful thing, then why does it have to be so grueling…or at that point is it no longer love? Ah, questions that have no definite answer…only opinion. Well, here’s my opinion for you. True, ideal love (which is extraordinarily rare) is limitless and is simply always wanting the best for those you love. This love is completely selfless. It’s the only thing that can defy time a distance, and has more power than hatred.

“We’re the bridge across forever, arching above the sea, adventuring for our pleasure, living mysteries for the fun of it, choosing disasters triumphs challenges impossible odds, testing ourselves over and again, learning love and love and LOVE!” ~ The Bridge Across Forever

Now really consider this…
If you always wanted the best for those you loved, it would be a lot less painless. If their happiness, not your own happiness, was always your first priority, love would be a lot simpler. Then it would only hurt when our friends were unhappy, and we’d be more apt to help them. Unfortunately, society teaches us very differently. Society teaches us a greedy, selfish “love” (if it can even be called that) filled with pain and numbness. We’re no longer being warmed by the fire, but engulfed in flame and burned. Life becomes an impossible mission. After all, it is by not always thinking of yourself, if you can manage it, that you might somehow be happy. Until you make room in your life for someone as important to you as yourself, you will always be searching and lost…
Now imagine if this ideal love became a global phenomenon…we’d have a completely different world. No war, no hate, just pure love. Unfortunately it’s a dream that will never become reality. Still, the second you give up, the second you accept the cards life has dealt you, the second you begin to truly love, everything seems to come together and you are ultimately free.

“…there is such a thing as perfection…and our purpose for living is to find that perfection and show it forth….Each of us is in truth an unlimited idea of freedom. Everything that limits us we have to put aside.” ~ Jonathan Livingston Seagull

Alright, enough lecturing for now. I’ve probably scared or bored you to death by now. Just a thought to throw on the table.”

August 16, 2006

Goodnight World!

Filed under: Daily Life — runningforlife @ 11:37 pm

I’m dead tired so I’m going to bed. With some luck I’ll get a chance to write tomorrow. ‘Night!

August 15, 2006

Yet another day of band camp comes to a close…

Filed under: Daily Life — runningforlife @ 10:52 pm

I think we’re once again all beginning to feel the pains of band camp. My feet hurt, my wrist is throbbing, the cut on my leg from the skewer stings….ah, the many joys of band camp. Alright, so it’s not that terrible. Dinner and after practice time has been great. “Smokin ‘mellows” yesterday was awesome. Too bad it was so windy today. Kyle, Beth, Fred, Ryan, Matt, Greg, and the trumpet player whose name I don’t know, I love you all! You guys make band camp so much fun. Kudos to Ryan for making the mentos/coke fountain during dinner and for the un-smores after practice tonight, made un-toasted with genuine 6 yr. old stale chocolate Graham crackers, damp sticky marshmallows, and melted pliable chocolate. Even better was seeing the look on Mr. Defren’s face after finished his un-smore and we told him that. : ) Mismatched clothing day tomorrow should be a riot…especially seeing Kyle in my skirt.
Let’s see…I have to get rid of the “tomato” a.s.a.p. or Kyle will probably kick my ass…hard. I missed talking to “chocolate” so I wrote him a letter and sent it via mail. Hopefully, his parents don’t read his mail…*gulp.* And I think that’s about it tonight. Oh, and Kyle, I hope your bunny feels tons better. : )

August 14, 2006

Home just in time for *grumbles* band camp

Filed under: Daily Life — runningforlife @ 10:57 am

The family picnic went better than expected. Then and again, road trips with my dad can be alright. The majority of my time was spent by the water (Lake Erie) where I watched two gorgeous sunsets. Although, it just made me miss talking to someone more. My cousins closest to my age didn’t drive me insane for the first time, and my youngest cousin (1 1/2 yrs) was absolutely adorable!

Sunday we went to the annual corn maze. It wasn’t so easy this year…it took us over two hours to get out. : ) Still it was good fun with Paul as my partner.

Oh one other thing I should include…we have a house (unless something should come up with the inspection). We’ll still have to live in an apartment for a few months, but it’ll be worth it. It’s the yellow cape on Baylis st. if you happen to be around there.

I’m definitely not looking forward to band today, or this week at all. Six hours of marching a day…yuck…three is enough for me. The super-coordinated (haha…not) Jenna attempting to do flag work should be pretty amusing. Hopefully I’ll be able to get the rotten tomato alone during dinner to, as Brendan put it, “Make tomato sauce out of him.” Definitely something that wasn’t meant to be.

Well off to get ready for band, get marshmallows, and miss someone even more.

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